Keepin It Real...

Today June 26th 2013 I feel afraid, afraid of what's to come next in my life. I've been through so much in my childhood, young adulthood and parenthood. I AM TIRED!!! TIRED of going through the pain and hurt of being abuse emotionally, physically, sexually, and mentally. I AM TIRED of letting my children down. I AM MAD at myself for allowing the things that have taken place in thier lives and NO MORE!! I AM TIRED of being AFRAID AND SCARED of him. I don't want to be SCARED of him. He put FEAR in me. You know my youngest daughter said to me today that she's not SCARED of him anymore and that made me feel good. I don't know if it was the best thing for me to say to her that I AM SCARED of him. Today I filed a restraining order and I have to go back to court tomorrow 6/27/13.

If I did go to marriage counseling like everyone was advising.  Because balls are going to be thrown into a marriage. Marriage couples are faced with this and don't know how to handle the situation(s)and majority resulting in divorce. By no means do I believe in divorce by normal circumstances. However, it became for my decision of a BIG problem that till this day I can not mentally cope with the reality that my children were being abuse.  This song was written with truth.